Sleepless NItes

Can't Sleep.. It's 3.40am. Went for the paintball game this early morning. Have to start journey to Rockingham at 8am! I did not wake up this early in few months....! I was so hard to get up, but when thought of the game, I wake up straight away. It was like 45 mins drive from bentley to rockingham.

Haha...! When all of us saw those ang mo, was so afraid that we have to play with them.. They so aggressive... tall and big size! hehe.. but we have our own field. 22 peoples, 11 vs 11 ppl. Dont think 100 bullets is alot. You can finish it within 2 mins! I doubt if there are 100 bullets/paintball inside. hehe.. I shot like 300 bullets in the first game!! one game was like only 10mins+. haha! too excited! manage to shoot some people. Of course ! 300 bullets.. what to expect? hahaha.. I think i use most bullets in the team... hehe.. I actually can predict this... When I play those shooting game , I always waste alot bullets to shoot 1 person! hahaha.. It was fun!!! Running, Hiding! Avoid been shoot.. MY GOSH! When the paintball hits me, it was so painful!!!!!!! bruise straight away. one circle! then the side getting lightly purple...! lol.. Some got shot at the head! Mask provided to protect. Uniform! Talking about the clothes! all the sizes are XL,XXL,XXXL,XXXXL , etc.. my gosh! for all the girls there, was like sweating! Luckily got one of the employee there so helpful. hehe

The game included free lunch, which just breads and sausages... GUess what? 3 trays of sausages, we finished 2 and 1/4 trays of sausages, 2 loafs of breads... 1/2 of bbq sauces and 1/2 tomato sauces!! lol.. so there was like nothing left for the ang mosssssssssssssssss.............. lol
so funny!!!

Resting moment.. all sitting at the back of the car.. DRINK WATER...

wahhhh....4.10am liaooo,, tomolo hav to work whole dayy! nites nites loRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....

Not feeling well today... Makes me no mood to do anything..
Don't feel like going out.. Just feel like hiding in my own room..
Don't feel like doing anything.. Just feel like lying on my bed..
Don't feel like going to work today.. But i know i have no choice..
Don't feel like picking up any phone calls...
Don't feel like meeting anyone....
Don't feel like talking...
Don't feel like eating...
Don't feel like anything..........

ExHAuSted

Just finish my SuppER with nelson and lily. For some reason, I was so hunger for western dish during the night! I ate a lot of stuff during the day time, and now I ate another dish! SPARE RIBS!! SO FULL.. like my tummy gonna explode!!!! I wanted to eat lamb chops.. but they do not have it in fast eddy.. sob sob...

So tired today again! WoKe up from a phone rang.... I know i couldn't sleep anymore if my eyes open a second. Hence I do not want to waste anytime on the bed as I always did before. hehe...

Next week will be a horrible week, no staffs working.. my project due soon... Me myself have to concentrate on my study... and my car sound like his having a 'SORETHROAT' everytime I start the engine. Still got white teeth and black bum! hahahahaha... But all these are not urgent, and not that I REALLY MIND about. URgent stuff is the shifts and my project. OF COURSE.. VISa!!!

wahh So tired liao... blog next time lahhh.... Sweet dreams everyone!!!!

Blog TemplateS

YEah!!! PRiscilla!!! I manage to done it liao!!! YEAH!!!!!! hahaha.. First time i edited my blog with new templates.. hehehe!

Just finish yam cha with priscilla... she keeps telling me the enjoyment of editing the templates and designs of the blog. This always been a hard thing for me to do. hehe.. Now i manage liao! YEAH!!!!

We talked during the drink. Just the two girls' talks! It was relaxing and enjoying.. It's always an enjoyment to spend time with her. OF COURSE! MY neighbour! MY family living just at the back of my house! hehe...

ps: Hmm... I gonna do according to my feelings flow luuu.. I'm not gonna care what you think anymore lor.. wheather you like it or not, it's not my problem anymore. I am just gonna do what I am suppose to do...

EmOtional

Jeffrey went for the surgery today.. I had been waiting for his call as he said he's going to call me after the surgery. I waited so long. Then I called up the number he gave me last night. He pick up the phone and sound so terrible!! But at least I still can heart his voice. So pity of him, that he have to suffer so much of the pain. Imagine a tube from the right leg to the heart. How long is that?! My GOsH!!

Was so tired after the whole day, wanted to take a nap but I knew I couldn't sleep at all. So I watch a bit of drama. I'm actually staring at the drama, but the mind thinking of something else. Day Dreaming again.. It's very relaxing. Day dreaming better than thinking stuff. The more stuff i think , i get more frustrated and emotional.

Waiting for priscilla to bring me out yam cha!! She's been so stressful these days.. plus didn't meet her for these few days. Kinda worry about her as well. Yi Wen lorrrr... Dun want to go, left me and priscilla only~~~ aiyerrr..........

p/s: Wondering.. How fast can one person let go of a relationship?

expenses

Feeling much better today. Not so up and down like yesterday. Of course, the problems wont go away just like that.. BUT.. face it normally and won't be any use if I panic anywhere...

So much to do... Project, then have to think about the employment.. then the visa stuff, then the part time job stuff...So many things to think! Been avoiding the issues.. but now I HAVE to face it already.. SO HARD.... MAybe I'm just not yet ready into the real society... probably..?

Sigh.. how? DO i really need to study another course? What course should I study? Is this the best way? SO many questions in my mind..
WAh!! SO LATE already.. have to get ready to go to work liao... HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!!!!! BYE!!!!!

25 August 2008

Went for a drive this evening.. Drove like 1-2 hours plus.. Drive till Stirling to Perth City and to Scaborough beach... I have no idea where I was going.... I just drive and drive... till I receive calls from friends. Was alot on my mind again.. I want to get it out of my mind...

Visit a friend in hospital... He have to make a decision to do or not to do the surgery, which is high risk... He so scare to do the surgery... seeing him with full of needles point... We were speechless......

Another ridiculous thing is that the stupid hospital, which provide SO CALLED services and FACILITIES!!! I don't even know is there any services at all!!! Wht hospital that take the bed away from the patient and let them sit from 9am till 11pm+???!?! What kind of duty of care given to the patients??? LouSY!!!!! Crazy!!!

FAN!!!

So many things happen again yesterday.. Was suppose to go visit the Araluen Botanical Tulip Farm, but can't go....sad..sad... So frustrated and unstable mood. Thinking of getting supports, however I did not get it. Maybe sometimes I should not hope so much.. So frustrated!!! Then being misunderstood by other people, without knowing what exactly happens! Walao... Don't want to bother!!!! NONE OF MY BUSINESS ANYWHERE!!

Have to stay strong! Have to keep myself firm!

AH!!!! Suddenly my neighbour tune up the music! So LOUD!!! VERY NOISY ah!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SunNY SatUrday

Just went to play volleyball at the leisure hall along MANNING ROAD. I actually did not wanted to go, but I know how good it feels after having some sports and abit of fun with everyone. This is the first time i played volleyball! It was so much fun..!! Of course, I still abit got abit of forbia of the ball hitting me, but I manage to Start the ball!!! Manage to hit it to the other side! YEAH!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!! hehehe...!!

Then I found out that volleyball players are very encouraging! although i play so sucks, they still claps hand and say : GOOD! NICE BALL!!! wao!! very positive attitude!! So happy and so relaxing! Hand swallon oso nevermind! Can gather together and have abit of sports fun is so good!!

Don't want to waste anytime on anything.. today is a happy, leisure, fruitful day!!!! YEAH!!!!!

EARLY BIRD on 22 aug 08

Woke up at 5am which is SOOOOO EARLY!!!! I can't believe it! I couldn't sleep.. I made a lot of planning.. Thinking to have a fruitful day.. However, I was so tired and sleepy. PLUS, there's alot of things on my mind. So i do what i usually do in order to upbring my moods. Which is DRESS UP! and HANG OUT! yeah!! (bought few new clothes, of course have to try out ! hohoho)

Go out with Miss P! hehe.. Have a talk with her at RIFO, a Italian restaurant with wonderful coffee and nice environment to hang out. She told me I have changed alot. Indeed I have change, and I'm glad I have change and I won't stop to improve myself! Thanks to all the experiences. and of course to all the supports of my friends/family. You all are the BEST!!!!! Without you all, I would not be who I am now! thanks!!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!!! MUAKSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MooDs

Hi everyone!! This is the first post of the blogspot.com. I used to have one blog in blogspot.com, well... I do not how to use it, and leave it to mold.. haha.. But one of my friend told me that it's easy to use. So, I give it another try..

I used to type alot of things in the blogs, such as all the relationships stuff, my moods , every things that happens that I'm not happy about. However, I would like to change this. It would not just the bad side of my life. BUt of course! the HAPPY PART OF MY LIFE!!!! yeah!!! Hope this time the blog will last! hahaha...