i lost my earrings again..
reminds me last time how u scold me when i lost my earrings when im back here.

I dont remember since when we don't talk to each other anymore...
i saw one of our chat history..
august 2008.
It was so so so so long time ago.. (actually just last year)
too many things happen in a year..
i hate you, and you hated me.

Again, i cant sleep .. Just slept like 3 to 4 hours. i woke up.. till now.. looking at the sunrise.. again
we're from two different world following two different path..
sometimes for 2 person who are thinking too much, may become an explosion

watever u did, hurts..
hurts till now..

I couldn't believe the person that i miss the most, is the MOST SELFISH ONE!!
Think about yourself only!
Say something that hurt other people..
YOU JUST LOVE COVER FOR YOUR OWN ASS!!!!

算了！
重今天开始，我要当我的女强人！！！！
往我的目标而冲！！！

**Only Hope**

Recently I'm so addicted to this song...
Only Hope by Mandy Moore...

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
Over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
Would you sing to me
Over and over and over again?
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me all the plans that you have for me
Over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I gave my destiny
I'll give you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it love
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

almost 3.35am.. i still can't sleep..

Browsed through the pictures uploaded by my friends..
Saw a very familiar face on my friend's pictures.
my heart sink straight away... all the scenes, all the images, flashes through.....
I tried not to think... I tried not to bother.. Tried so hard to act nothing happen , which i do not know if i successful act through or not..
but i can't stop thinking..

now this moment, i'm not happy.. i know that i'm not...
the cut is there.. the hurt is still there..

I tried not to blog.. When you start blogging, it's must be there's a thing that you don't know who to turn to,to tell... Hence you turn to this page which started as "www.blogpot.com"
Then you type everything that you don't want/ don't like to tell.
Well.. this is what I'm doing again, at this moment, 8.09pm of 8th December 2009.

I experienced so many things for the past few days or even weeks..
For the last few weeks, I organized an event for my friend. End up I don't get any response from her/him.. Sorry but that's already my limit.

I had 3 weird things happened in my dream in one night!!!
I dreamed that my thesis was rejected *TOUCHWOOD*
I dreamed that I saw my boss AGAIN!! when i'm hanging out with friends
The most weird one! I saw mr J. with all the teeths are gone!!!!!
Crazy!!!!

Then, my best friend was so emo these few days.. i tried to contact her. but it's so hard to reach her! I'm worried as well.... but again.. when u tried to call and call.. and yet so hard to reach.............................. i duno wat else i can do..

Watched alot similar story line in the different drama... makes me think again..
I also wanted everyone around me to be happy! But always it seems it just not the case...
sorry guys and girls.. i'll tired as well....

Xmas holiday gonna be here soon.. So all works are piling up !!! Stress and StresS!!!
sometimes just dun know who to turn to...

Happy Birthday

It was Shao Han and Sarah's birthday yesterday.. Celebrations... dinner. karaoke.. etc
stop reminding me the old times..
I do not want to be reminded the old times...
karaoke with you guys..
PLease don't remind me those times anymore.. I love my life now..
not the old days.. those are my miserable moments...

Sorry guys.. But really.. i want to look and run forward..
Let me free from the memory cage....