BloGGING

Been so stressful these days! Tried to do my assignments and project, but can't find any source for it. When you tried so hard to move forward and find a solution for it, and can't get anything out of it. You will feel that you been pushed back to round 0! Which like the game we used to play in those game shop, Ryu v.s Vega, then you tried so hard using your fist and kicks to shorten opponent's HP, but the opponent avoid and attack back. Getting nervous, sweating, and try harder to hit the target... But K.O.!!!! Sad!

This is when the point that you think: how come??? how come??????
'Trying to get a bone from an egg' (Chinese chen yu)
Sigh!! But after talking to Pris again.. She save my life again... I feel so much better....
Going for street fighter round 2, not using Ryu anymore! hahaahahha

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To my Readers,

I am so happy that Little Brownies come back to me at last.. Due to some problems, I left it with my friend. I been missing it so so so much!! Can't let go of it when I'm at home!

Here Here is my little brownies!

It's not really an expensive dog ( compare to the dog at aaron's house, and more expensive than tamagochi) But I'm satisfied at the moment with this! hehehehehehe.

It's 1.14am already! The daylight saving end on the last Saturday( the day I worked at Burswood, banquet function with all the funny costume customers). Gonna sleep soon de lorr!!!!
Have alot of work to do again tomolo lehhh....
GOOD NITE EVERYONE!!! OYASUMI !!!!!!

Today I was suppose to have bunch of work to do. It was going smoothly during the day time. As towards the sunset, I got message from one of my friend. I do not know how come I felt so down after I heard the news. Most of us work so hard to come and stay in this place, Perth. Tried so many ways to stay! Work, study, sponsorship!!!! But then, there is for sure some reasons that pull us back to malaysia!!! I do not know why in the sudden. It's so hard to stay in a place! Why is so hard? Do not understand!!


DRINK !!!! and WATCH drama!!!

It's the first shift I work in a Burswood banquet. So reluctant to go and work.... But one of my friend who just keep quiet the whole day, suddenly decide to open his voice and support me to go and work. So i Went!

It's a costume party banquet! So funny to see the customers all wearing costume , got popeye the Sailorman, Joker from the Batman, punk, then alot characters that I cant recognize! I was assigned to the table with the Joker and Emo guy! hahahaha.. They such a friendly customers, they help me to stack up the plates and etc before I go collect. That's so kind of them, of course. I try to provide them the services they want as well. They DRINK ALOT!!! So i put as much alcohol as i can.
yeah! and also, this banquet is for fund raising! It's like donation for poor kids! Then they manage to raise quite alot, I can see the faces of the organizer , they all so happy and pleased! That's make me happy as well! I didn't know that there are still generous people there with this kind of economy.

PRis Pris, always after the work, I'll give you a call de............ but now.. don't know how are you liao. I know my 3 line here so sucks... If i call you, will be: har har har, cant hear you.. yeah yeah.. wat? ,
so.. rather not call.. more irrating if got this kind of call. I think it will irratate you as well.

Hey.. Sorry guys, I was so tired yesterday.. Don't know why.. Sorry if I spoil you guys mood during the lunch and yam cha! PAISEH... SU MI MA SEH!!

Don't know why am I so addicted to update my blog now..
It's like writing an everyday performance report!
Today my performance is not so good lor... only 50% nia... so sad~~:(

Woke up just before noon but my head so drowsy........ Force myself to wake up that i knew I got alot things to settle and hand in soon. However, I can't concentrate and drowsy all the whole day!

Even when I received messages, I was so drowsy and I do not know what am i replying. Didn't expect to receive any messages from you. But still got it. So i think you just thought of me out of no where. and simply send a msg. Well. Thanks anywhere!

Wednesday classes always end at 8 - 9pm. If you ask me how you like Wednesday, i would be having complicated feelings... sometimes I like it, sometimes i don't.
I do not know why.. I have the habit or feeling to contact you on Wednesday. Is like a routine...! Is like our movie nites!

To admit it, yes i actually wanted to ask you if you want to watch a movie.. just purely movie. But just in case, better don't.
Luckily, today got yi wen san, wing san and jason san suggested to go uni for research. So i do not have time for being alone, which lets me the possibility to msg you. Thank GOD!

With their help, my feeling today is better and hence increased from 50% to 70%! quite high! Thank you everyone!

ps: Pris san, of course you are not wing san.. but with wing san, it's like i can feel your attendance some where. which means, wing san reminds me of you. so meeting him everyday = reminds me of you everday! hehehe...
Dear, anything you must msg me oh...I'm still here.. waiting for you to come back to Perth de ohhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

I wont consider today is a fruitful day. But I did not waste my time on other things such as thinking unnecessary things. I been spending my time thinking all about my studies. So I would consider my marks for today is 80% as in doing something useful! hehe.. I want to spend whole my time in doing my studies.

Then today is the second class for the Japanese. a li ga to , ka ta ri na sen sei....
With her japanese classes, really take me away from my studies to relax my minds in a while.
We had a quiz today! Not sure how good I did. But should be pass at least! :P

Been in the uni whole day with wing san. With wing san reminds me alot of Pris san. It's like wing = pris! although not totally the same... hehe..

Pris san.... ha ji me ma shi te???? must keep in touch oh~~~

okok... it's time to POK SAT liao!!!!!! GAM BA DE EVERYONE!!!!

Trial

Another emo blog....

I didn't really know what am i doing yesterday. I just on msn.. chat and go to karaoke..? without realizing what am i doing. I know as if all will be the same as old times... all BUDDIES! hang out together.. yeah.. I do enjoy the singing...

But I think I'll just stick to my decision. I feel more peace rather than so troubled like now. Maybe some months or years later then we can talk some more. After all, she's only the one you need and who you should turn to. That's how the nature should be. Then everything will be straighten up.

As for me, I will continue hang out with my friends and then focus on my studies...........
after all these... I think I'm learning to solve my problems..

SuNNy Day

Today Suppose to be a sunny day... suppose to be a day full of happiness and fun. But I'm not happy at all. I do not have the mood to do anything.. I tried to do so many things to make myself happy. I went to karawara to buy stuffs and groceries (shopping is wat i always I do to make myself happy)
I cook myself a very nice tom yam noodles soup with dumplings in it.
I cook Xue Er dessert, ask friends to come and drink.
Chat with them...
I watch drama, anime, entertainment shows, etc
I make myself a ham and mayo sandwiches
I cook another vege soup
Bake an apple pie........

After all these.. I still ...........................

I do not know what is your feeling when you send me the 2 messages yesterday. BUt I do not dare to reply you at all. I know... If I reply you this time, again I won't able to firm with it. That's why I choose not to reply you. I been thinking hard today.... Should I send you this last message. Your mom actually asked me to motivate you in your studies. I have actually promise her to do it.

I know this road won't be easy.. But I do have to go through it. Alone or not, I been through it before. So i believe I can do it again. No matter how hard it is. I have to go through it again.

Also.. Alot of memories flow through my mind..
The message you asked me whether I like caramel
The place you bring me to have pancake, rifo
The night you bring me around when I'm emo
The day you cooked salted vege soup for me when I said I wan to drink the night before
The sandwiches you made for me bcoz you know I'll skip dinner
accompany me to uni at night when I'm doing my thesis
accompany me at jeff's house when he's in troubles
The time you called me when I'm working, ask me wat do i wan to eat for dinner.
Drink wine with me in mill point
watch movie with me
Surprise me with the mp3 player in the car
again, cook hot and sour soup without telling me.
bought prawn crackers for me and ask our friends to cook for us

Of course I also remember when I saw you at northbridge when I just sat down in the restaurant.
When you fight with me during work and the kitchen it's like an earthquake
When you quarrel with me through the phone and you have to walk all the way from belmont to bentley
when u dun wan to follow my car and walk home from carousel

these memories will be kept at the side.. I want to seal it....

Then I remember how all my friends encourages me... Long ago one of them told me, just forget it. If you pass through this, then you will have your story to tell to other ppl next time.
Then I remember also how my bunch of friends try to encourage me till 4am in the morning. One of them having test the next day!
One of them told me that:
what are you still hoping actually???? Why do you want to hope when you know it's not right?
Why are you so silly? Why are you still putting yourself in this kind of troubles? Are you really happy? Is this what you really want?
We don't want you to do all these to let us see. We dont want to see you acting. We want you to wake up.
We don't want you to get hurt.

Do you know that, my friends even tear for me....... Where can you get these kinds of friends.. I would never forget how they tears flow....

Na ji me mas de.... wa ta shi no na ma e ka re su ta desu. Dou zo yo ro shi o ne gai mas!

First sentence learned in the japanese class! by ka ta ri na sensei!!
with wing to yi wen to el ru fin san! kekeke

waoo.. it's so hard..
so eevery day have to revise

a i u e o
sa shi su se so
ka ki ku ke ko!!!!

Wing san downloaded Twilight!!!! so we watched together !
Bella Swan is so thin lah!!! Carlisle is still as handsome as always.. Alice as sweet as ever.!!
Can't wait for the New Moon! Don't know is there any chance that we watch this movie together..? Dunno leh.........? Supposely is watching series together.. but now maybe wont get the chance anymore.. Din expect Twilight would be the first and the last movie we watch.

D N R - Ice Cream

Talk to me
Speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise, baby
Don’t fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

D N R - Ice Cream / QQ: 470005569

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

D N R - Ice Cream / QQ: 470005569

Nice Chat

Just came back from Aaron's house. Played pictionary like 3 rounds! Gosh.. You should see how Jess and Ruth played. They are so GOOD at it!!!! REALLY INCREDIBLE!! draw one line = chairman! Goodness me!!!!

Had a good chance to chat with an old friend yesterday. To be frank.. I was damn nervous and scare before meeting this friend. But just give it a shoot! Since I wanted to try to talk it out. After talking to you. I really learn something from you. The way you're acting now. Really is a way out, isn't it? Cut off everything or anyone related. I can't be so firm with my decision, is that I'm soft hearted. After talking to you. I think I know what to do.
Thank you!

Chasing Pavement (Adele)
by AWN


I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
if I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
I know this is love but,
If I tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that抯 exactly what I need to do,
If I'm in love with you,
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere.
I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it, Or
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere.
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere.

Listened to this song, reminds me of one of my best friends in Kay kay, NIs! You send me this song and said this is my song. COuldn't understand at first. But now I do...